speaking of long.....
i have been teaching and carrying the 'teacher' title for more than a year already....
started off as a little private tutor to none other than my own relatives
to a 'licenced' tutor in a tuition centre...
started off with just one class...
ended up with classes every single day wthout fail.....
started off with stress free classes
now, everyday is torment to me.... always complaining to bf always sighing always thinking how to maintain the number of students always finding ways to tickle the students' interest...
tutoring has never occured to me as something stressful...
when i was alot younger, my teacher asked me....
"What is your ambition, Jasmin?"
"Teacher"
when i wa alot younger, i would gather my 'students' , the teddies in front of the mini white board and start scribbling nonsense and asking questions to my 'students' , which leads to no response...
when i was alot younger, i would admire my private tuition teacher who was able to teach me to who i am today....
i see alot of students being tutored day by day but no improvement...
but my private teacher not oni moulded me to who i am today, a teacher,
she created a strong base in language, calculations and science for me....
now that's a true teacher.....
and u know how i was being tutored ???
homework from page 1 to 20...
first mistake, 10 times correction....
same mistake done, 20 x correction...
yet the same mistake, 50 x correction....
again, 100 x correction.....
for english , she used form 4 books to teach... (i was oni in 4th grade)
speaking of professionalism...
now that's a true teacher.....
that was years ago.....
in today's world where kids are being pampered all the time,
can we teachers, especially young ones like me be able to 'torture' the students to perfection ??
NO !!!!!
all i have to do is sabar, 'yan', patient, 'ren'
with their eye-soring antics....
"Teacher, i cannot do ur homework because i have alot of work from school"
"Teacher, i forgot to do la"
"Teacher, i was sick"
and what can i do ?????
"Ok la, do in class..."
" Ok la u do for next week. I want to see next time"
that was what i can oni do with my students : Be PATIENT
tuition centre is worse....
the students are like ur boss because they pay u to teach...
and u as teacher are like their slave, teaching them...
they dun like u ???
they 'sack' u by stop taking ur class......
so what u do as a teacher in centres ??
u 'lick' their shoes and mengampu them.....
i was afraid i'll lose these students....
reason ??
(1) the boss will 'boh song' me
(2) less pay
(3) my reputation as a teacher will be tarnished and i will be labelled as tecaher who keeps on losing students
teaching has always been a bliss to me until now.....
the stress is building up and i never never complained abt tuition in blogs, but look at what i am doing now ?????
i'm slowly moving towards depression....
and i am always not looking forward to classes because it drains me mentally...
mummy always said,
"You're only working for that few hours and already you're complaining dun wan to teach bla bla"
i admit i am L-A-Z-Y
but teaching and being lazy as a person is different
but berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul....
no one can understand the stress i am going thru because they/you just ain't me....
have u had doors slammed onto ur face before by ur 'lovely' students ?
i have...
have u had students putting the white board eraser on top of the ceiling so that you cannot reach it ??
i have....
have u had students opening the doors of ur car when u were about to drive away from work at night when it was fucking dark ??
i have.....
and i had to bear with all these because i am the slave and they are the boss....
after yesterday's class, i told my ex tuition teacher cum senior cum role model cum friend
that i cannot stand it anymore....
i will blame myself if the number of students dwindle.....
so its better to get someone else taking over my class.....
if my boss wanna penalise me for doing that or lecture me for doing that....
i can oni say
I AM SORRY , SIR
if u wanna sack me for doing that
I AM SORRY, SIR
nvm la..... we'll see how it goes.....
march is here and i'll see how is the response from students...
if the number really decreases, then i'm out....
better not put UNIVERSAL in jeopardy....
i'll just stay with my private classes if forced to 'jalan buntu'
*****************end of misery*******************
1 comment:
hmm...personally i think it would be MUCH MUCH MUCH, 100x better than teaching at tuition centre considering ur responsibility on each of ur every students(after i taught that kid for few months-forget bout my part,i juz wanna tell u dat i realised the 'it will be my *highlight*[responsibility]')
1st of all, the stress, without me telling u, a sure-know for ya(as a teacher ^^)~
then, ur responsibility, again...will build up stress for ya(accumulate huh? yea true...)
i hav one reference(was my teacher who taught only english for primary to secondary) for ya if u gonna b a PRIVATE tutor,
i'll share the details wif u when v hav a chance next time
for now i'll say, she was able to gain the faith from her student's parents(i assume u un' y) and so, dats how she earned a lot
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