update~~~

omg, it's been a while since i last updated my blog...

well, what to do ?? assignments and midterm tests on the way...

anyway, will update as soon as possible...

really feel like talking abt the birthday marathon and presents i have received...

so sweet !!! got me hyped up !!!

peace... take care everyone....

legal~finally

countdown to becoming 18 !!! 3 more days to go~~

ta-da... mom never fail to come up with surprise partay for me..

oni this time, she was busted...

thanks to ANN biu jie...

she came to my hse on thursday and asked..

"So SUN how ???"

KANTOI !!!!!

haha... but i turn over a deaf ear.. pretending i heard ntg...

sunday schedule---

8-12pm : Tolong Universal send flyers to every hse in the area...

(i apologise to Cheng min for being late and going back earlier... i hope u understand.... me and wan ting love u *angelic face* thanks for helping us with the rest of the flyers... sent u a message of apology.. hope u dapat lah ya ?)

12pm-1pm : washed up... and throwing tantrums.. because it was bloody hot..
sorry mom... really am.... i know i have been short tempered and throwing tantrums everywhere... sorry...

not forgetting, sent ting ting home...

1-3pm : reached Hung Kee... blur~~~ never tot mom would choose to celebrate here... never been here... so blur~~~ ??????

then jalan jalan to the table.... aik !!!

nampak everyone....

(1) Ta Yee and Ta yee jeong

(2) 2 yee and 2 yee jeong

(3) Erin and Eric (not forgetting little THONG yun jai.. hehe)

(4) Stephanie and Ann

(5) Beauty and Beautiful and their 4 kids

(6) 5 yee 5 yee jeong

(7) Canace Sophia and Fiona

(8) Kao Fu and KAo Mou

thank u all for coming... really... although it's not surprising that u're all there... still i'm happy to see u there... means alot to me..

shall not talk more abt the partay... simple but touching...

wat abt prezzies , u ask ??? eh HALOOO..

dah berapa umur oh ???!!!

cuma ader ANGPAU la... but Erin and Eric gave me a LOCCITANE hand cream and notepad... (weird) but acceptable..

i wanna present to u the birthday song they sang to me.. it's cantonese but i'll translate as much as i can...

ahem ahem *clear throat*

lei ge sang yat lei ge si (ur birthday,ur matter)

lei ge sang yat lei ge si (ur birthday,ur matter)

lei ge sang yat kwang ngo matt si (ur birthday is not my business)

lei ge sang yat lei gei si (ur birthday,ur matter)

end this post with of course..

PICS OF THE PARTAY !!! WOOOOOHOOOOOO

to who ??? to me ME ME ME !!!

Ann, Lala and Yuki

Kao Fu and Kao Mou


Fiona

5 yee and 5 yee jeongSophia
Ta yee and Ta yee jeong

Eric

2 yee and 2 yee jeong

Erin and Eric
Lydiaso KAO SIEW

Before
After

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Then it was CATCH THE DAMNED FLIES CONTEST !!!

Wa-la !!! there u have...... ur catch !!!!!! muahahahaha

BIRTHDAY CHIC SIGNING OUT....



peACE.... LOVE YA ALL !!!

the wound just gets deeper

after receiving the much anticipated message from u...

it makes me even sadder...

u rather drag for days instead of settling it now...

i know it's just small matter but the longer u drag... it just becomes worse

i dunno what is happening there with u and i think u dun wan to let me know

too... i know u're sad... but so am i..

nvm la.. i tried... i tried mending things... i tried,hema...

after that i went thru my photo album in my desktop.. browsing thru the pictures we had together...

throughout the years we have known each other...

the more i see, i wanted to cry again...

look at what has happened to us now??

me writing emo posts...

without knowing how's life of the others..

is this what they say, frenz come and go???

i really cannot stand it...

i dun wan this to happen...

look at how innocent we were and how happy were the moments we had together

i miss those moments....

i miss NEE...

i miss HANG...

i miss TING...

i miss RACH....

i miss all the BOIIS...

i want u back...

i envy u for having the world with u but not me

what's the meaning of friendship ?

in a little girl's point of view, it's abt playing together and jumping around..

once one of them pushes her down, she cries and cries non-stop..

the next thing u know, she is again playing with the others- happily...

in the eyes of a fifth grader, it's abt having sleepovers and going out with the family members of frenz..

once they do something wrong, like stepping on her brand new school shoes,

she will only say " I DUN FRIEND YOU LA"

but after a couple of days, there u have again,

them climbing on the hill behind their school.. racing to the top..

in the mind of a young lady, it's abt having that circle of frenz she love and trust with her..

laughing together, crying together...

she wishes tat the circle of frenz will never grow in size or decrease in number..

once one additional someone joins the group, it will never be the same because he/she has never bonded the way the rest did...

once the number decline, it will never be the same because they are losing one more heart to fill in with love and one more laughter to be heard..

but sadly, her biggest fear came true.. the clan that she's in is somehow "dead" and also her alliance clan is breaking apart..

it tore her heart apart and stimulated her water tap...

though she meets new friends every single day, the feeling is never the same..

the bond will never be like the one she calls "there's no other"

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i envy u for having the world with u but not me...

the world i meant is the world u and I together with the rest have created..

the one friendship we held on so tightly no matter how many conflicts we've been in together..

or should I say, I held on no matter how many tears i've shed and how long i've yearned for attention from everyone like the one u constantly get...

calls for a simple meal or even for a movie at the nearest cinema..

i've longed for those calls.. but it never came and i believe it never will...

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i stood up for someone i call my brother..

and because of that, i fought with another close fren whom i love and care for..

she never asked why and instantly in her mind, marked the "I'M SO PISSED RITE NOW"

she apologised but was it from the bottom of her heart, i never had time to ponder..

it broke my heart the moment she started a conversation with me saying "IF THERE'S SOMETHING YOU DUN LIKE ABT ME, TELL ME URSELF"

she has never started a mutual conversation with me and when she did,

this was what i get..

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i never have enuf time for myself but i always put my frenz before me..

tell me u have a problem...

i will make sure that the least that i can do for u is lend u my ears..

i always get scolding from mom for not managing my time well enuf...

i can drive here and there to just pay frenz a visit...

but assignments never fail to be waiting for me back at home..

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though my mind keeps telling me, i'm doing it hoping for nothing in return..

but my hearts says " I WANT MORE LOVE FROM YOU ALL"

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a year has passed,

it's that time again...

where i wait and wait and wait for it to come...

because it's that only one time that I'm in the spotlight...

the outstanding one... the only actress with a script...

i wish for a happy ending...

but fate disappoints me again...

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i realise one thing...

they say TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE...

HAVING A BUNCH IS LIKE HAVING A STAR IN UR POCKET..

in my case, my sadness has affected the others..

first, my sole bestie who holds my darkest secret..

now has spread to all...

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i blame no 1 but myself for voicing out...

i will retreat if i am the cause of everything...

i will retreat if i am the bone sticking in one's throat...

i thank those who care...

i wish it was YOU...

someone told me,

"I AM SURE THEY STILL CARE.. THEY JUST DUN SHOW"

maybe.... but i'm tired to think about it already..

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i apologise to those i've neglected in the past...

putting oni this clan first in my list of priorities...

thank u cally for writing such a meaningful post for me...

thank u hoi seng for worrying about me and having sleepless night blaming yourself for not being able to help..

thank u ben for asking me "are u okay?"

thank u chin young for sending me the sudden message showing me how much u care...

thank u ken for reading my blog and asking me out this sunday (i will need to disappoint u)

thank u siong tat for still calling me your "BROTHER"

thank u kim hwo for hearing me out and ur present which u self-selected just for me...

thank u to joe for making me feel that our frenship is still mendable...

thank u kin lam for being strong and listening to my advice to stay strong.. makes me feel appreciated...

thank u roy (ken hin) for having lunch with me tat day although i wasn't in the mood..

thank u all who started a conversation with me offering me ur concern..

THANK YOU ~~ XIE XIE~~ KAM SIA~~ TERIMA KASIH~~ TOU JEH

and to those who knows about my gastric, be lighten up and worry not cos i'm eating normally with 3 meals in line...

i wont be going back to the doc for that-that's for sure..

been there thrice and done it thrice too..

i end this post with a phrase used by kim hwo everytime i tell him abt my prob..

LET BYGONE BE BYGONE

post to Nee

is that wat u think ???

is this what u want ???

have u got any idea how important u are to me ???

how even the slightiest thing u say hurt me ??

u are my bestie... i share evverything with u...

and u are being so childish by saying tat u wont be going there and i should go...

have u got any idea how much i wanted u to be there to celeb with me ???

that was why i keep saying to u...

U NEED TO MAKE IT UP TO ME NO MATTER WHAT SINCE U'RE GOING OFF ON 26TH

guess it doesnt struck u how much i mean it for u to celeb with me no matter wat...

suen la... u just dun see what the problem is here.....

and i dun understand what u mean by no more calls/msgs/msn

are u trying to say u wanna retreat and dun wanna talk to me anymore ???

cos it looks like it.....

and again, u're being very childish to not wan to confront this problem with me...

i cant take it anymore

i'm very sad....

i really am..

tearing up for a few days already..

i can't take it anymore...

i'm fucking sick of life...

i cannot take it anymore...

i know i'm being very silly...

for being such a baby...

but i am really under alot of pressure...

no1 can understand me...

no 1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

unlucky jasmin

u see the wallpaper i had on my phone ???

that was wat Cha Cha wrote for me and set as my wallpaper..

and it was TODAY...... guess wat ??? i was indeeed.... U-N-L-U-C-K-Y

i guess i dun have to say much.... sob sob....

the story is pretty easy..

i wanted to reverse.... so wanted to change gear la

while change gear sure must srep on brake rite ??

instead of brake.... i stepped on the F-ING ACCELERATOR !!!

haih.... bang the back of a Myvi...

the driver came out and spoke to me..

and man, was i shaking...

passed the line to him (mom's on the other line)

bla bla bla... settled...

he'll let us do the reparing for him...

now... all i'm thinking is i'm guilty...

mom need to spend on my baby because of my freaking carelessness...

she said "THERE GOES UR BIRTHDAY PRESENT !!"

peace....

day-out with CHA CHA

it wasn't exactly an outing or wat-so-ever..

i just kinda hang around in TARC with my beb, CHA CHA during our 1 hr break

ntg much... went to the cafeteria...

makan makan...

then all of a sudden... i feel the "urge" to get AISTERU...

it's actually the name of a iced ice cream, u know what i mean ?? i think it's also called SHERBET in proper english.. i think so..

wateva... so as we were approaching the kiosk selling AISTERU..

suddenly the siu jie went to the DIGI kiosk to buy reload card...

swt... what actually made me stood there is the free gifts..

because she was such a DARLING to be their customer..

she gets to go "FISHING".. i'm not kidding.. serious...

fishing for free gifts la...

then went over to my destination ~finally.. damn the weather's hot~

RM 5.00 for 3 cups... ~deal~

then putting one mouthful into her mouth, the silly head BLURTED OUT !!

"NOT NICE ONE... YERRR... NO TASTE ONE... YER... U CHEAT MY MONEY"

i was like, stonned and embarrassed..

the guy selling this seemed awkward too... haha...

he was like.. "Yameh ??? No la..."

what sorta lame answers la wei..

haha.... but man, CHA, u're one hell of a daring chick...

haha... my face turned tomato red... i know i know...

well, i wasnt really expecting that to come out from ur mouth...

haha..

then we sat down and chit-chatted...

wow, it's been a while since i last get to sit down with sum1 and chat abt

~bois~ ~bags~ ~designer clothes~ ~gossips~

it was sooooooooooo fun...

fun in the sense, i get to talk.... sumthing outta studies and co-cu..

my other coursemates have been asking me the same questiuon lately..

"Why are you so quiet compared to LAST SEM ??"

i simply answered... "Matured liao gua??!!"

the truth is... i really wanna talk abt none other than "JUST USUAL STUFF"

i cant stand it when u guys start talking abt studies studies studies..

wrong channel... sorry...

will try to catch up with u guys in terms of studies,ya ??

when i start STUDYING la.... haha....

end this post with pictures of the day...

ps : thank u cha cha for lending me an ear... and i appreciate the fact that u're comfortable chatting with me... telling me abt ur part of life... although u never mention it, but i know.... i'm one of ur BFF in college.. BANGGA!!!

reminiscence

special request from muah mama...

pictures from back then till now...

spot the evolution...

they say " lui dai sap pat pin"

direct translation..

girls big 18 changes....

haha... it literally means...

as girls grow older, they change..

in my case, DRASTICALLY !!!

see....