just when i thought......................

just when i thought......

that life will be a little lenient on lil ol' me.....

here it comes to another disasterous day.....

i shall start with my rant on tuition classes...

remember i said that i told my senior that i wanna stop my F2 class???

i thought he would be finding a replacement for me

and i will be bidding my students bye-bye....

all he did was just talk to the kids...

telling them , dun bully me..... give warning la bla bla...... hope he din scare my students...

arghhhhh CHENG MIN !!!!!!

but we'll see how it goes next week....

just hope my number of students will not decrease.... *fingers crossed till they bleed*

i will feel so so so so guilty if that happens...

if it does happen, can i put the blame on cheng min ?? ngiek ngiek....

nah, it's still my fault and responsibility.....

speaking of cheng min, he's going to Liverpool John Moores in UK for his 3 months training

congrats, u're graduating soon and free from tuition classes lor.....

after u, it will be muah's turn to fly there.....

it's costly but no matter what,

I AM NOT GOING TO LOSE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO SEE THE OUTSIDE WORLD..

and able to get a degree after these 3 months,

who doesn't want this????

i'm lucky because i have seniors who will be telling me what to expect there and etc

so that i'll be all geared up when it's muah's turn... CAN'T WAIT...

countdown to that, 3 more YEARS !!!!!!!!! bahahahaha

and i wan muah's BF to come along...

he said he wanna get his degree locally,

hope he changes his mind....

and i also hope that a few of our coursemates will also go...

it will be freaking lotsa fun...

to have frenz together in a world that is a stranger to us all.....

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now, i'll talk about muah's outing yesterday (23th feb Saturday)

for the very first time after such long long time,

i got to go out for the whole day.... and i truly mean the whole day.... till midnite siut...

we went to mid valley...

believe it or not, i think i have not gone there for almost a year already...

i am not gonna tell the details of what we did on that day...

as usual lor.... eat movie and shop....

but i wanna highlight the climax of the whole story....

it concerns muah's BFFzzzz

who u ask ??? i shall keep it to myself.... (you know who u are)

we had a slight argument... and it results in HER being moody... we're sorry.... sorry,k ??

and then it was time to have our dinner....

as usual i wan them to try shabu shabu in puchong so badly that i said , why not make it tonight ??

then everyone said ok.... with that , we went to fetch another BFF, mr. JJ

while we were at his house... 2 cars waiting (i was driving too, yippy but shhh dun tell muah mom)

suddenly , received a call saying that mr.H is coming along...

being the impatient one and the blur one too...

once he reached, i zoomed... without waiting..... well i did call them to tell them i will be waiting SOMEWHERE

which in turn, i was so afraid to stop and sped off..... SORRY

then in the end, all 3 cars were separated....

and along the road, i was blaming myself.....

why so impatient la ???

why so bad la ????

i know my wrong and i admit it..... ego put aside... i apologise to ALL OF YOU !!

there are alot i wanna let YOU know dear, but haih... u just wont let me...

and i also pity mr.H..... he had to "DO SOMETHING" just to de-stress.....

DEAR (if u really do know who u are) , i hope u will give the poor man a closure to all the miseries u both are going thru....

can't bear to see u both in "SUCH" situation...

there are too many isi tersirat huh ??? haha...

keep on guessing peeps....

rank my outing ?

*3 STARS*

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, phrase of the day : STAND UP WHEN STANDING IS ........... oh my i forgot

peace

been so long

speaking of long.....

i have been teaching and carrying the 'teacher' title for more than a year already....

started off as a little private tutor to none other than my own relatives

to a 'licenced' tutor in a tuition centre...

started off with just one class...

ended up with classes every single day wthout fail.....

started off with stress free classes

now, everyday is torment to me.... always complaining to bf always sighing always thinking how to maintain the number of students always finding ways to tickle the students' interest...

tutoring has never occured to me as something stressful...

when i was alot younger, my teacher asked me....

"What is your ambition, Jasmin?"

"Teacher"

when i wa alot younger, i would gather my 'students' , the teddies in front of the mini white board and start scribbling nonsense and asking questions to my 'students' , which leads to no response...

when i was alot younger, i would admire my private tuition teacher who was able to teach me to who i am today....

i see alot of students being tutored day by day but no improvement...

but my private teacher not oni moulded me to who i am today, a teacher,

she created a strong base in language, calculations and science for me....

now that's a true teacher.....

and u know how i was being tutored ???

homework from page 1 to 20...

first mistake, 10 times correction....

same mistake done, 20 x correction...

yet the same mistake, 50 x correction....

again, 100 x correction.....

for english , she used form 4 books to teach... (i was oni in 4th grade)

speaking of professionalism...

now that's a true teacher.....

that was years ago.....

in today's world where kids are being pampered all the time,

can we teachers, especially young ones like me be able to 'torture' the students to perfection ??

NO !!!!!

all i have to do is sabar, 'yan', patient, 'ren'

with their eye-soring antics....

"Teacher, i cannot do ur homework because i have alot of work from school"

"Teacher, i forgot to do la"

"Teacher, i was sick"

and what can i do ?????

"Ok la, do in class..."

" Ok la u do for next week. I want to see next time"

that was what i can oni do with my students : Be PATIENT

tuition centre is worse....

the students are like ur boss because they pay u to teach...

and u as teacher are like their slave, teaching them...

they dun like u ???

they 'sack' u by stop taking ur class......

so what u do as a teacher in centres ??

u 'lick' their shoes and mengampu them.....

i was afraid i'll lose these students....

reason ??

(1) the boss will 'boh song' me

(2) less pay

(3) my reputation as a teacher will be tarnished and i will be labelled as tecaher who keeps on losing students

teaching has always been a bliss to me until now.....

the stress is building up and i never never complained abt tuition in blogs, but look at what i am doing now ?????

i'm slowly moving towards depression....

and i am always not looking forward to classes because it drains me mentally...

mummy always said,

"You're only working for that few hours and already you're complaining dun wan to teach bla bla"

i admit i am L-A-Z-Y

but teaching and being lazy as a person is different

but berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul....

no one can understand the stress i am going thru because they/you just ain't me....

have u had doors slammed onto ur face before by ur 'lovely' students ?

i have...

have u had students putting the white board eraser on top of the ceiling so that you cannot reach it ??

i have....

have u had students opening the doors of ur car when u were about to drive away from work at night when it was fucking dark ??

i have.....

and i had to bear with all these because i am the slave and they are the boss....

after yesterday's class, i told my ex tuition teacher cum senior cum role model cum friend

that i cannot stand it anymore....

i will blame myself if the number of students dwindle.....

so its better to get someone else taking over my class.....

if my boss wanna penalise me for doing that or lecture me for doing that....

i can oni say

I AM SORRY , SIR

if u wanna sack me for doing that

I AM SORRY, SIR

nvm la..... we'll see how it goes.....

march is here and i'll see how is the response from students...

if the number really decreases, then i'm out....

better not put UNIVERSAL in jeopardy....

i'll just stay with my private classes if forced to 'jalan buntu'

*****************end of misery*******************

TO MUCH RELIEF....

was shocked to receive a message from Aunty Pauline which reads :

just to inform the girls are having exam on 10 march so please arrange extra classes asap. and would like to apologise of what happened @ your hse the other day.. over those questions asked by brendon that made u unhappy.. hope u understand they r still children who r naive.. so sorry again if they have offended u unintentionally tq

woah after i received this message, the first tot was How on earth did Aunty find out abt this incident and worse still, how did she know that i was upset ???!!!

freaks me out to think that aunty might have read my blog or probably someone did and told her....

i dare not think further..... burdens my brain and honestly i dun have much time for stuff like this....

college is re-opening next week !!!

both excited and sad thinking of the total madness i might need to face.....

college + tuition centre + private tuition = total MADNESS

wish me luck and pray that i dun end up in the asylum

and oh ya results for my SEM2 exam is going to be out on 6th march....... wish me MORE luck...

and please my Lady Luck, you have been great help for the past few years cos i've been scoring satisfactory marks then..

i just hope you will do me good this time......

ps : while i was riting this post, got another message from Aunty Pauline... apparently Claudine told her about it..... talking about sigh of relief.... i can BREATHE again.... haha... APOLOGY ACCEPTED AUNTY !!!! no worries.... i love teaching your kids... they might be rude the other day but they bought joy and enthusiasm to my class EVERY SINGLE TIME !!

tagged by cally... weird or fact ??

15 facts about me...

(1) i'm not very good in socializing... i am used to stumbling upon my speech or blush while talking... happens during tuition classes too.. bahaha

(2) i love laughing out loud like a cow... everyone knows that...

(3) i dun like watching movis unless it's horror.. so next time dun ask me out for movie treats unless we are all dying in boredom already..

(4) dun like eating chocolates.. dun like the smell... remember vomiting after comsuming it... but when i'm under stress, i resort to eating choco non-stop

(5) never wear dresses and skirts... dun ask why..

(6) dun like shopping like other girls do...

(7) hates being fat but keeps eating non-stop

(8) very panicky... remember crying over maths test because din get 100% and also fainting in front of principal..

couldnt think of anything else liao.... i shall stop now.... PEACE !!

i'm so pissed rite now..

after having a conversation with hang babe abt the KIDS......

just wanna let it all out.... hehe...

being random i suppose.....

miss u hang babe.... long time no tengok tengok u liao.....

yum cha someday ??????

PEACEEEEEEE

left speechless when communicating with kids

as the title suggests,

i had a hard time talking with kids, age between 7-11

today ( 15th February)

my students, who are actually cousins to my kindergarden+primary+secondary schoolmate cum neighbour

went to my house with their cousins named Brendon and i-forgot-her-name

U-N-I-N-V-I-T-E-D-L-Y

i repeat ... UNINVITEDLY

clad in my everyday home attire kept since primary time, i greeted them..

and patted Cookie... if u noticed my previous post, u'll know that COOKIE's a dog belonging to my students...

back to the story,

we started our conversation.. here..

Claudine : Hi Jasmin. What are you doing ?

Me : Playing games (assuming they dunno what Wii is)

Celestine : What games ? Computer games ?

Me : No. Wii...

Brendon : Oh wii... (like he knows it very well) How much is it ? What kind of games do you have, Jasmin ?

Me : *Paused for a moment* Errm, resident's evil...

Claudine : Just now we thought that house was yours. (pointing at my other neighbour's hse) Forgot which one is yours.

Brendon : I thought you shifted when your father passed away. That time i came to your house and i saw u crying. (he was referring to my father's funeral.. yup, he came and he was pretty darn just a kid back then) Thought you moved after the funeral.

Me : *Eyes widened in shock and dumbfounded* No lah...

Brendon : Your dad was shot.

Me : *Felt as if i was being fucked upside down* No lah.. Who told you that ?

Brendon : Your mom.. oh no i mean your Grandma..

Me : Oh.... really.... I see.... (really dunno how to react and say )

Me : Anyway, you kids wanna come in my hse (i pity them standing outside my gate)

Claudine : I go ask my mother first...

Eventually, the mother gave them the green light and so in they went... and i totally freakingly regretted my action of inviting them in MYSELF....

they were pain in both the neck and ASS !!!!

asking lotsa questions and they were pretty rude...

Claudine : Jasmin, why your house so creepy ? So quiet.. It creeps me out..

Celestine : your room why so dark ? (that's because i din on the light... *deng*)

although the light is on, it still is scary...

Man, they were so bloody rude for kids at their age...

to me, i was thinking they felt the creep because my dad passed away and in this house, there're oni me mama and grandmama... no other kids to make noise and we're all grown ups... so to these kids, my house is creepy when it should be D-U-L-L...

and btw, before i forget,

there was even once that Claud and Celes asked me if my mom was dead or not ??

their reason to that question,

I NEVER SEE YOUR MOTHER BEFORE...

please do allow me to say some vulgar words though i can't dedicate these to the kids cos i must ASSUME that they're still young so they dunno how to filter their words before bubbling out their thoughts...

FUCK IT.... WHAT THE HELL ?????????????

*******************END of my misery***********************

promise to update when i do have something interesting in my life..

IN NEED OF INTRIGUING HAPPENING IN MY LIFE...

i told u...

holidays suck...

besides rotting at home and going for my usual teaching routine, i basically have nothing to do

but from 11th to 13th february,

i got the chance to spend some time with HIM...

summarizing things up,

dun feel like tellin every single tiny weeney details,

so here goes...

11TH FEBRUARY

went to mama's office and watch drama ~END~

12TH FEBRUARY

went couzzie's hse and played WII ~END~

13TH FEBRUARY

went genting till 1 am ~END~

haha.... nice blog hor ??

well there isnt really much thing to blog about lor... sorry..

BY THE WAY ,

I GOT MYSELF NINTENDO WII !!!!!!! yea... WII VS PSP and i chose WII

well.. what can i say abt this WII ??

it provides a platform for everyone to get together...

i tell u, i bought it during CNY eve and i din even get to play...

my couzzies were crazy over it and would come almost everyday just to play play play

and.. my young nieces and nephew would sit in a circle and shout scream and jump...

consequence of too much WII, my TV just went KABOOM...

no kidding... the TV cannot be used... yup.. that's right...

but no, mama wasn't mad at me... she said she wouln't blame me for it...

she even encouraged me to break the TV downstairs...

for some personal reasons... hehe..

SOMEONE GET ME A EAR SPRAY OR SOMETHING...

i must be hallucinating my mom saying tat...

but that's the fact i cannot deny... in short it means TRUTH...

that is how i define TRUTH to my F2 students..

speaking of which, i'm really starting to be very afraid of teaching nowadays...

the stress~ EVERYTHING~

BOSS especially....

but that's my RICE BOWL... guess i dun have a choice...

btw, my student's aunty's fren's son needs home tuition but i'm pretty packed...

do u think i should take the job??? well we'll oni crack the head in march..

the mother said, CALL U IN MARCH.... THINK ABOUT IT YEA,JASMIN..

ok i probably should give it a littlt consideration... hor hor ??? RICE BOWL u know??

ok la... update jor... kinda long also mah hor CHIN YOUNG ?? BENJAMIN LOOI ?? HAN SIANG?? MELVIN GOH ???

haha...... wrapping things up with

GET WELL SOON RIHANNA AND I WAN TO GO TO UR CONCERT LA !!!

STILL GOT TICKETS BOH ???

I SUPPORT LU......

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GIRL !!!!!!